Sometimes we laugh....

...and sometimes we cry. Sometimes it's hard to figure out our way in this life.

3 years ago today, I danced, for the first time as a married couple on our wedding day, with my husband to that song. Brandon Rhyder sings it and I use to love it. I use to love it a lot. I'll never hear those words the same way again.

It was a beautiful wedding. And a beautiful reception. The dress I wore was the perfect dress. The songs we picked out for the ceremony and reception were the perfect songs. I'll never forget how I felt that day. Luckiest girl in the world.

3 years ago today, I would have never imagined how our story would play out. The "worse" got the "better" of us, I suppose.

I imagined I would go through the day today without a care in the world. I imagined I might even have a couple of margaritas and make a toast to life's unexpected curveballs we sometimes get. I didn't do either of those things.

Instead, I wallowed in self-pity for a while, occupied my mind with a lot of mindless internet browsing, drove, and drove, and drove and came up with a little mental plan and pep talk to get myself through these hard times...

#1 on the list: Find a new favorite song.
#2 on the list: Wait for the hidden blessing that is bound to come from this. God alllways comes through for us in that way, doesn't he?

oh la dee, oh la dah, life goes on, oooooh na na na na life goes on...